So what prompted me to begin my 'journaling' again? Well, I'll tell you. It was getting lost in someone elses writings. I began reading them out of my natural curiosity, but I continued out of the simple yet profound joy that I experienced from it. I couldn't help but be transported to glimpses of her life as she gave details that made parts of who she is come to life. It was a uniquely satisfying experience.
So here I am, beginning again on my quest to write about my life. I am in my senior year of college, though I'm off-track, doing the best I can with what I have. I don't know everything that I want, and don't want some of the things I have. But I learned a long time ago that I will be better off doing what the Lord directs than what I want. The peace that is brought from that one truth is priceless.
I'm currently trying to begin to learn the guitar. I find my guitar to be like a fickle woman. Never eager to work with me and is making me pay for every step won towards victory. I sometimes wonder if, unbeknownst to me, I was actually born into this world without something that everybody else has that allows them to play the guitar. Like a muggle in a world of wizards. Music is magic to me.
I'm also not sure why I'm in Rexburg, other than the Lord told me this is where I needed to be for the summer. This was one of those times I was more than happy to comply with His directions, as any sane person would be who knew of Rexburg's wonderful nature. So here I am, taking my WFR (Wilderness First Responder) certification, waiting for my National Guard annual training to hit, and trying to just be the best person that I can be.
I'm trying to avoid distractions. The Lord has made clear to me in a couple ways that that should be a goal of mine. And so I have made it so. Anything from playing my roommates Xbox to needlessly worrying over details of my life like "Who will I marry, and when?" I'm trying to focus on things that lie within my sphere to act upon. This last devotional was a wonderful milestone in this area particular facet of my life. I felt strongly impressed to come home and write out meaningful goals and create a purposeful daily/weekly schedule. So I came home and did it! (Nephi, you inspire me). I can't tell you how much it has impacted me over just the past three days. I feel more... well, more. It's like what Paul said about seeing through a cloudy glass at first and then seeing clearly (well he said something like that, Tevia wouldn't complain if I didn't get it right on the dot so I won't). I look forward to shedding off distractions and needless burdens by focusing on using my agency as well as I possibly can with the Lord's tender help. I am nothing without Him. He continually makes me into more than I could ever become on my own. How thankful I am to be who I am and to know what I do.
